well i'm just feeling a bit weird about myself and the relationship i'm in(with my bf)...i mean i don't see him except once in a blue moon and in that space of not seeing him it's hard to find something to talk about(leading up to the relationship we did this whole question thing to get to know each other better and this is the result...) and even now when i do see him there are these gaps of silence...and feel this distance...but when i do see him he does something or just the fact that someone likes me in that way makes me fall in love with him again(god i sound pathetic)...

now i don't want to be a hypocrite and say that i hadn't though that this isn't going well and just pretend like everything's good...but i'm afraid if i do say something like that, that he'll think i'm breaking up with him(which i don't want to do! it’ll hurt both of us and then neither will be happy)...i've read books with these situations and always thought 'just get over urself and break up with him' but it's very hard now i see(yet again i sound pathetic*roll eyes*)...

as u can see i am at a loss of wat to do...